You make me;

grind my teeth you stupid fucking prick!
No one has any idea just how much contempt I hold for things sometimes. I am not easily swayed, I'm not easily rocked and I blame myself when someone manages to knock me off my feet. I should be stronger, I should be tougher. All I have to do is wait for such times as my brain clicks into gear; for it switch over from wishing it had never happened, to wishing I had never met you full stop. I think i'm almost there. I've never wanted to hate someone so much in my life. I dont think you or anyone else will every understand how much you hurt me. I wish you knew, the last thing I want is for you to think I care. It's hard to change this mindset. It's hard to truely depict the events and the feelings through words. All I really want to do is break things. All I really want to do is punch you in the face until one of us cries!