A Letter Of Apology

Dear...

2 hour showers, late night drives, cuddleing you under a blanket on a veranda in the early hours of the morning and reminiscing about when we were young and when we were together.

I was never really into it was I? I was never really there. I did not treat you how you deserved to be treated. Although you were far, very far from perfect I know you cared. You really thought I was something, thats what I remember. I'm sorry I lied to you. I'm sorry I made things up to excuse how much I distanced myself from you. I'm sorry we did it once, just that one time after you'd waited so long to proove to me I was special. After you waited all that time to say "I love you". You tried so hard and I took you for granted. I got caught up and I lost touch with the reasons I fell for you in the first place. I'm sorry.
I loved it the other night. I loved being around you again. I loved saying "I remember..." and I loved hearing you say "what else do you remember?" I love how much has been unlocked inside my head now, how much I actually do remember.
You know I used to look back on our relationship as a bad one. Truth is the good far outweighed the bad. It was cut short and that was my fault . I can't forget the conspiracies, the things I still dont know were true or not. I can't forget you throwing cans at me and I can't forget the cigarette burns, but we've both grown up now. I find myself remembering all the reasons why I chose you in the first place. There was just always something about you. There always will be, I can't deny you're one of the more significant ones.

So here's my letter of apology, I hope it finds you well. One day maybe you'll get to read it; until then I hope I see you again soon. I'm expecting that I will.

Regards.